Tuesday, March 04, 2008

累~

现在在脑海里只有一个累字~~

从14 Feb开始,忙碌的生活就没有间断过,压力也没有间断过~
每一天都生活在忙碌当中,一直在想很多工作没有做完,很多东西要做....
每一个晚上工作到12/1点凌晨,星期六,星期日也要上班....
每一天想到明天要上班,心也会寒一阵子,因为要解决的堆积如山,要完成的好像永远都没完没了....
压力堆积的自己晚上睡不着,凌晨醒来,不能入睡~
曾经因为压力太大,放声哭了....
曾经因为自己没有能力应付,心跳的很快,像要跳出来一样~~
曾经因为心跳得很快,像要窒息一样,呼吸不到~~
我的同事说我不会handle stress,也许吧~~
真的从来没有这么压力过~~
那段时间,一回到家,看到妈妈,就抱着她。。。
只是想有个人抱一抱~~
抱过了,疼过了,感觉也比较好一些~~

海洋天使和自己说,生活没有了,只有工作....
这并不是海洋天使想要的~~
曾经想过就这样放弃了,不值得吧~~
累坏自己,辛苦自己~~
但是又会想,放弃了,下一个是不是会比这个来的好呢?
不做这个,海洋天使又可以做什么呢?
一直都没有答案~~

今天七点钟回家,可以说是这两个星期最最早回家的一天....
但是其实背后还有很多东西需要做,直到明天又会有一堆问题....
怎么样啊?做完了吗?什么时候可以完成?
感觉真的很累哦~~
自己是不是一直要做着一些呢?
并不是~~
那现在可以做什么呢?
可以走哪一些路呢?
没有答案~~
好无奈哦~~

4 comments:

mamasoju said...

I am sure everyone will face some similiar situation, just take ur time, slowly... think abt it ... hugsss...

Phoebe said...

Hooooo......try to relax myself....
this march very hard to stay...

satisfaction-brought-back cat said...

it's always the commitments and possesions that bounded ur answers.
u have choice, if u have the strong will to walk out.
the answer is there, when u asked urself the question.
make urself happy, u r still very young. really very young.

海洋天使 said...

hmmm... yeah... everyone will face the same... just how to handle that by oneself~~
March is always a good month to me, becoz is my birth month, although last time i will say before a week from my bday, will have sort of "bad" things happen to me... but i still like my bday~~
somehow, this year, this is the first time i ever so suffering...
and i hope that i have the ability to overcome all these~~